... that makes me sad. I had a married friend I was in love with -- he was the only person I ever loved. I broke off the relationship after my guilt became too great to bear. Haven't seen him in months, but we'd exchange emails every so often and give each other updates. After a few emails today, I realized our relationship is over. I feel a great loss... (And yes, I should have known better.)
It's hard to hear the part of yourself that knows better when you're feeling that kind of strong emotion. I'm sorry that you are in pain right now.
Thanks to all for your kind words. I'm still in a limbo stage with my friend. Yesterday I was convinced the relationship was over, but today my friend wrote back. I won't go into the details of what led me to believe what I did, but it revolved around what I perceived as a lack of commitment. His situation is no longer a secret to his family, and sometimes I forget how stressful that can be. The result is that we spoke today -- the first time in months. I was able to express my concerns openly and asked him to think seriously about what is best for him. And that's where it stands...
