Who am I kidding? I don't think I fooled him one bit... Pretty sure he always kinda knew. Now I can say I am out... To one. It's so weird. I felt so peaceful after I told him. I still feel a little detached from that part of my identity... Kinda like I am an observer in my own life. But yeah. Out to one.
Melanie, I am only out to gay friends ( my safety zone ). I know exactly what you mean by that feeling of peace that comes over you. Do you walk around smiling to yourself when you think about it? Been there! No one could ever understand the feeling, that hasn't spent their life in denial. I don't even care right now if I ever have a relationship…As for the future??...who knows. But I'm finally at peace with the present.
Everyone: Thank you so much for the support. IDK Waterfall I just feel whole... but like I am the same person that I was. I'm with you in that I am so not focused on being in a relationship. lb41974 I am hoping it will get easier from here... I'm really tired of hiding. Tom: yeah I feel like I have been working really hard to fool myself. :/
