He said that when I told him, the morning I came out to him, that I had something to tell him that his first thought was that I was going to tell him I was a man. Considering all the signs I was displaying i was shocked he would come to that conclusion! Then he said he had decided that even if I became a man he would love me and stay with me because his love isn't based on my appearance. I guess it's not really based on my gender, either. And I suppose that's a good thing. Of course, I feel bad that he loves me so much, and so unconditionally and I'm unable to return his love the same way. I mean I do love him, and I love him no matter what and its a love that is fast better suited to a close friendship than life partner. I don't really know how I feel about this.
Sometimes I think the guilty feelings we have because of having a supporting/accepting partner is worse than having a angry one. It's something my husband flip flops on and I always feel worse when he's kind and loving about the situation.
