So I had visitors for a change yesterday evening. First, the only woman I have ever known - whom I am staying away from as she is toxic, came with her kids as her son wanted to visit my son. A few minutes later, my bi friend who my husband finds weird comes in with her children. That was too much estrogen for me lol I have never been so happy to have a lot of children running here and there and making a lot of noise The evening went well, despite how weird it was to have both females that I find/found attractive hahaha There was a point in the visit where I felt a sense of awkwardness with the woman I was one romantic with, and I think she finally got the message that I no longer want to be involved with her in that way. She will always be welcomed in my home for the kids' sakes but I will not allow her toxicity to penetrate into my marriage. A few weeks ago, I had to turn her down again and told her the truth as to why I don't want to be involved with her anymore. The more I turn her down, it seems the more she finds ways to stay in our lives. Going back to school should help, so need positive vibes
