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Going outside

Discussion in 'LGBT Later in Life' started by Koan, Nov 14, 2015.

  1. Koan

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    I am a 40 something crossdresser / genderqueer.

    I have spent more than 25 in confusion, shame and denial about myself since I was around 10.

    I have spent the last few years tolerating my "condition" rather than acting on my desires nor embracing them.

    Only few weeks ago I started dressing at home.

    Today, I took a short walk outside (in the dark) dressed. Sure with a long coat covering my dress and a huge scarf taking some of the attention away from my breasts.

    It turned out, that the most scary thing was navigating a winded staircase in a pair of high-heeled boots :badgrin: Well, I was also a bit apprehensive passing people on the other side of the road. Being new on high heels I was not totally discreete.

    But still I did something I thought would never ever happen in my life. I can't believe how fast shame is disappearing out of my life.
     
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  2. YermanTom

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    Out to everyone
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    (*hug*)
     
  3. Shadowsylke

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    Good for you! That took courage, and I can imagine how scary yet exhilarating it must have felt.

    And yeah, get rid of that shame. You don't have room for it...you need that space for better things!