Cap, this is really cool. How did you manage to keep such good track of your feelings to plot them like this?
Whoa, you put some time into this! Hopefully your goal isn't to reach your Old Baseline? You should make one outlining your goals! I'm impressed by how much Terror has plummeted. High five! Funny you posted this because I've been working on my "Personal Inventory" all morning long whilst cleaning.
I just estimated them based on what I remember about my journey. Ideally I'd have taken measurements daily or weekly and then plotted them in Excel or the like. But this is just an infographic/visualization, not based on actual data. ---------- Post added 22nd Nov 2015 at 01:23 PM ---------- Thanks, yeah terror plummeted when I told my husband and he took it relatively well. My estimate of my new baselines are on the far right. I think my life will not be as comfortable as it was before, because my terror, sadness/regret, and desire will be higher than my old baselines. However, this isn't all bad. I'm a more complex person than I thought I was before, and these new baselines will reflect that. ---------- Post added 22nd Nov 2015 at 01:24 PM ---------- Thanks, yeah terror plummeted when I told my husband and he took it relatively well. My estimate of my new baselines are on the far right. I think my life will not be as comfortable as it was before, because my terror, sadness/regret, and desire will be higher than my old baselines. However, this isn't all bad. I'm a more complex person than I thought I was before, and these new baselines will reflect that. What's a Personal Inventory?
A tad on the geeky side. That's probably why I love it ;-) Good look in your journey. It looks like you are progressing fine.
Thanks for sharing this, it is fascinating. I'm happy to see the humor and appreciation increasing as the distressful feelings decreasing. Wonder what it will be like in another 6 months?
A Personal Inventory consists of taking an honest look at yourself and making note of the character flaws that got you to this point in your life. Once you do that, you can work to improve upon them and let go of resentments. For example, I came out late, married a man, and lived unfulfilled because I care too much what others think, because I tend to become lazy and do what's easiest, and because I wasn't comfortable enough with myself to face the truth. Remembering this keeps me from back pedaling into comfort and reminds me of what I truly want for my life. It also helps me let go of resentments I have toward my mother for shaming me, and my husband (though any resentments I had toward him were misplaced).
Sounds awesome. I may try it soon. I feel like dealing with my personal flaws is a full time job haha.
Hey, me too! :smilewave The idea of living like I did before is waaaaay scarier than anything else I can imagine, and knowing that definitely helps. Also love the OP's graph; I can relate, I just emerged from "watch hours of izombie or Agents of Shield to avoid feeling overwhelmed" land. Very cool idea.
Sorry, that just cracks me up! Trying to make our feelings "scientific!!!" But, hey, I can so relate, and glad it gets better!!!
Your chart is great it's always good to reflect on where you've been . Have you thought about trying to have a direct opposite of each feeling - you have disire and satisfaction but maybe if you had joy, understanding of self and peace on your chart you would see a balance or lack there of ? Just a thought ? You seem to be needing something right now - desire is a stronger feeling your dealing with - can you pin point what it is exactly that your needing or wanting?
I know, it's a failing of mine. It DOES get better. ---------- Post added 20th Dec 2015 at 11:02 AM ---------- Thank you, Danni! This chart was from about a month ago, and time has continued my trajectory toward baseline. I think trying to have joy is a great idea. My sons bring me joy but being open to their moments of awesomeness is sometimes hard at the end of a day. I have to remind myself often that the silly jokes they tell, not whether they brushed their teeth by 7:33PM, are important. Sadly nothing but beating down my desire will do the trick--I find that engaging with my desire to have sex with women feeds it. I've told my husband we need to f$@k more, though, and that helps!
