I've been lurking here for a while, and wanted to officially poke my head in and say hello. And happy holidays! I know this season is rough for many, myself included, but wanted to give a warm greeting to all of you. As I said, I've been lurking here for a while, kind of afraid to post, or afraid to make it "official". The sort version of my story is that I'm 31, and recently accepted that I am a lesbian. I'm married to a man (for almost 10 years) and have 2 kids (aged 5 and 3). I haven't told my husband yet, and I'm afraid to. I have promised myself that I will tell him in 2016, no matter what that means. I don't want to stay with him, I want to be with a woman. I want to feel like I can really just be ME. Sometimes I still go back and forth in thinking maybe I can just be bi and stay with my husband. But I don't think I can pretend anymore. I also had a bit of an encounter with a woman I really like, and it kind of confirmed for me that, yeah, I really really really am a lesbian. I get so jealous of people who figure it all out when they are younger. Or who figure it out before settling in a marriage and having kids. It just feels so huge to face this thing. But I'm so tired of being depressed and suppressing who I am, and living a life that feels inauthentic. Sorry for the novella, but just wanted to give a little introduction here. I'm really happy to have found this place a couple months ago. It's always a relief to know you're not the only one!
Welcome to EC Shauna, As I am sure you realize lurking about there are many, many of us here in all states of matrimony and coming out/out etc. Just know that we are all here for each other especially over the holidays and during times of tribulation and success. Wishing you well - J
Your story is very similar to mine, and I would venture many others' on here. So glad you poked your head out.
Thank you, both. One of the things that has brought me comfort is knowing there are others here going through the same thing. I think having support is super important, and I'm grateful to have found this board.
Welcome to the Empty Closets. I can only imagine how it must feel to only figure it out when you're older instead of at my age. We are all here to support you
I used to do that, too! :icon_redf I actually started posting anonymously before actively engaging in threads. :welcome: