what a feeling!!!!!

So I had the best feeling today.

I am married to a man and not out to anyone but my sister.
I´m truly out to myself and I´ve accepted my sexual orientation. More than accepted - I´m happy with it.
I haven´t allowed myself to live a lesbian life or even be open to anything yet.

But today, oh my god.
In my work, I go to different places to meet kids I´m working with.
A woman, who works in one of those places, is a lesbian. Pretty sure she is in a relationship though..
But I´ve been catching myself looking at her and just thinking..
And today, when she walked past me, she kinda put her hand on my shoulder, longer than for just a hi. And we talked a bit.
Just from that touch, I got butterflies in my stomach and an electric feeling in all my body. Oh my.. oh my it felt sooooo good.

I´m not planning on trying anything there. But I´ve clearly opened myself to those feelings and it felt so great. It was the first time I let those feelings take place and it was so exciting. I´m almost crying just writing this. :icon_redf

I´m in a different place than so many people here. I want to come out to the world - so bad!! I want to live my life, I want to find a woman for me, I want to be true to myself.
But I´m just not ready for the divorce yet.

Anyway.
I just wanted to share that beautiful, awesome, new feeling I had. :icon_bigg

 

I´m not looking for a relationship. But I think you are right, it´s okay to be available for a little flirting. And that actually sounds fun

---------- Post added 29th Jan 2016 at 06:21 PM ----------

wow.. thank you for the link. Like reading my own feelings a bit..