Let It Go

It's been 5 years since I have come out to my family and I can't allow the internalized homophobia to hold me back any more from establishing meaningful same-sex relationships.

Today, I'm consciously deciding to begin the journey of trying to let it all go. I know it's going to be a tug-of-war within my mind, however, the brakes need to come off and moving forward is better than standing still.

Here are lyrics from Levi Kreis song "Let It Go". It means so much to me right now.

After all these years
God what have I done
The mistakes I 've made
And there 's more than one
And I can 't help but wonder
If i can let it be .

I keep looking back
On this wounded heart
Tears my mind in two
And my soul apart
But it 's over now
Time for me to move on

Let it go
Let it all go
It 's time to forgive now
The one who matters the most
Baby please don 't cry
There will come a time
When you understand
There 's a greater plan
But until the day
You will be just fine

Just keep moving on
And keep holding out
There 's a fire in you
That no past can put out
And it 's calling you
Baby let it burn
Let it burn

Let it go
Let it all go
It 's time to forgive now
The one who matters the most
When you gonna stop usin' yourself
Stop accusin' yourself
Givin' every excuse
And not believin' yourself
Love is all you need
Close your eyes and breathe

Let it go
Let it all go
It 's time to forgive now
The one who matters most

Let it go
Let it all go

It 's time to forgive now
the one who matters most oooh, love is all you need
Close your eyes and breathe
Let go babe .
Mmmm let go babe

:tears::tears: & :smilewave to my old self. I will always respect you and you will always be a part of me, however the new person is starting to grow and flourish.

 

Another great article on internalized homophobia:
Letting Go of Internalized Homophobia | The Bilerico Project

---------- Post added 25th Feb 2016 at 03:11 PM ----------

And another:

The Rainbow Project: Internalised Homophobia