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Bringing my love of reading to my love of women

Discussion in 'LGBT Later in Life' started by latenlife lez, Apr 6, 2016.

  1. latenlife lez

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    Well I have recently- in the last year come out to myself and husband- and a few others- one of the things I loved in my Straight life- was romance novels- in the last 10 years they just did not hold the same draw and pull though and well now I know why.

    I started getting samples of books from amazon- then got a few short stories. Yesterday I graduated to a full blown novel. I am enjoying it very much. But sometimes it gets weird- mainly because I keep trying to compare- my reactions to steamy scenes before I was out with hetero book- verses my reaction now with lesbian books.

    my reaction is that it feels normal but weird- what I enjoy no matter who is making love- is the suspense leading to the moment- however what makes it weird is I can now imagine me doing it- or receiving it when reading a Lesbian scene-- before I never really imagined- and as I said in the last 10 year- I mainly flipped through love scenes- and got back to the plot.

    It is very weird- for me- in some ways the books could be identical with the exception of who is doing who- but on some level I guess I needed this- because I am begging to feel normal-- as normal as I can living 2 lives (both in and out of the closet)

    I love to experience through reading- and as a teen it was my escape-- to be honest it still is- I wonder if I had had a chance to read a romance novel with any type of couple would I have been un-aware so long?- or would I have seen myself and struggled through my 20's instead of my 40's

    anybody else out there going through this with books?
     
  2. OutofZCloset

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    Uhh....there are lesbian books? Who would have guessed. :slight_smile: Do you have any recommendations?