I have been posting about my wife not quite understanding that my being gay isn't something that can be "cured". She has been reading on the internet and she finally understands. We had a talk last night and have decided to stick things out until finances are in order, but at least now she gets it and realizes things will be changing. Probably be about a year, unless she finds someone else.
I have some mixed feelings. I've been depressed for over 14 years living this lie. In the beginning, I had never been with a woman and I thought feelings would develop, but they never did. I'm going to be leaving my best friend which is sad, but I'm excited about the possibilities of being able to move on and have a life partner someday that I will be excited to come home to from work.
Wow, this is great to hear. I understand your mixed feelings, I imagine it's like relief, optimism, fear and sadness all wrapped into one. Just take it one day at a time. This is a great step.
I'm proud of you for being honest and letting your best friend see more truth about you. You're doing great.
I'm so glad you had the courage to take that step. I hope you felt a little release when you did that. It won't be easy going forward, but hopefully you won't feel that burden as much. I'm curious to follow your journey as I am in the same boat with finances, etc. No quick exit stage left for me either.
I think it sounds like you are doing really well! I do think you are headed for a storm, though. The stages of grief are varied and people don't go from denial to acceptance without getting mad and sad first. Just gather your wits and your courage and try not to let yourselves destroy too much while that is happening. You'll be OK in the end.
