Guess who's back?

Hey everyone! I've missed you all! My absence wasn't at all intentional--with the separation, and the kids, and the move, and the full-time job, and then my genius idea to go back to school in the midst of it all, I am just now coming up for air (a.k.a. the semester just ended). I'm excited to catch up.

For those who don't know me, a very brief introduction: I came to this site 10 years and 2 kids into a marriage to a wonderful man, jobless (I was a stay-at-home parent), and coming to terms with the fact that I am a lesbian. My husband and I went through a lot of heartache and therapy after I came out to him, and eventually I made the very difficult decision to exit the marriage. I got a job, and started paving the way for an official separation. We continued to live together while we figured out logistics. We moved apart in January and share custody of our 2 young kids.

I think the last time I posted, I was having some issues with my (very first ever official) girlfriend. I was in a dark place and honestly shouldn't have been in a relationship at all that soon after everything happened. However, since then, we've improved our communication ten fold, and our relationship has grown and flourished and become something . . . just fucking incredible, really.

You guys, I'm like . . . so gay. So. Gay. I never thought I could be as fulfilled in a relationship as I am now. On every level. It's like . . . I actually want to be around this person! And touch her! And make her happy! And tell her all the things about me! And know all the things about her! And . . . well, what have we here? A sex drive! What are these FEELINGS?!

I could go on and on for paragraphs about how I feel and what I feel and I'm sure over the course of the next couple of months I have off from school I will. But, I just want to offer hope to anyone who needs it. My job is super shitty guys. My schedule is insane. My life is a mess. I don't have my shit together really at all. I'm struggling. But, ironically, amid the chaos, I am at the happiest I have ever been. Because I know I am being true to myself and doing what I need to do to make my life bigger than I ever imagined. I finally believe myself, guys. I FINALLY trust myself. I'm my own rock. I told myself I could do it, even though I didn't believe it. I did it, even though I didn't think I could. And now I believe--because I'm in it. I did it. And that's enough.

So, it'll take me an eternity to go through all the posts from the past several months. I am going to try to navigate through some of them, but let me hear some updates!