I did it...update 1

I recently posted that I came out to my wife on May 17th. Update...last night before we went to bed she wanted to talk. My heart rate went through the roof! I had told her that my therapist had expressed concern for her. After all I have dealt with being gay and hiding for 55 years and she had known for 4 days. That's a huge adjustment. She told me that at first she was just plain shocked, then in complete denial and finally she accepted it. She told me that she realized that I had given up part of my self so that I could have a family better than what I grew up with and because I always wanted to be a teacher. She said she was proud of me for making that commitment when I was only 15 and loved me more now than ever. I cried myself to sleep....more to come.

 

I never thought it would work out like this. I thought I'd either hide for the rest of my life or something would happen to give me away and the result would be terrible. To have things work out like this is so far beyond my wildest dreams that I'm still in shock and probably will be for a while. The horrible weight is gone, but sometimes I forget after carrying it for 55 years....then suddenly I remember...she knows and I don't have to hide anymore...then the tears start.