I've not had any time to really let this sink in...in two weeks, we've agreed that we can start the open marriage. My husband answered me in email today, and my day has been a blur of working on no sleep, straight to going to a meetup, and so I'm having a bit of a delayed reaction. But....I'm just now having this warm energy pass through me. Happy is not quite the right word... It's more and a bit different than that. I feel a bit free, a bit like, I don't know, I don't know how to even describe this feeling. I don't think I've ever felt it before.... It's like a freedom to be myself, to feel and express things I feel. I'm imagining the feel of a woman's lips on mine, looking into a woman's eyes, touching her hand....
It's like my soul feels happy. I don't know a better way to say that... Have you guys ever felt that way?
So happy for you! Remember that cute outfit you mentioned many many moons ago? Now you can put it to good use
YESSSSS!! Only I may get a different outfit for my first date, I'm not sure I like the little top as much as I thought.
Thanks!!!! I'm less tired today and instead of feeling quietly happy, I'm listening to my party playlist and feeling super squee kind of haaappy! Wearing my little pride bracelet, listening to my queer music, thinking about the important things... Like, updating my dating profile, what to wear on my first girl date, etc....
B, go back and read some of your first posts, and then reread what you just sent. You have been navigating a massive number of mine fields, and you have been doing it successfully. At the same time, you have done so while remaining in your marriage, with honesty and integrity. Good for you! I will be at the London Pride parade this weekend, and will be thinking of you when I am there.
Wow, thanks OTH, that makes me so happy. And ...I went back and looked at some of those old posts....I've come so far, I was so lost and feeling a lot of pain. It's really encouraging to think about all the steps I've taken. Thanks OTH, this makes me feel really good.
