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Mental Healt issue

Discussion in 'LGBT Later in Life' started by Marish, Jun 30, 2016.

  1. Marish

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    Am bipolar and really manic at moment. Have been for two months. Not slleping well, 2.5 hours average a night. Really up and down, nice Marish and Manic Marish, Hate my sexuality so much, disgusted with myself. Know that abuse I got as a child was my own fault as I was pretty and sought cuddles and hugs. But I have about 30 gay chat apps and spend all night and most of day seeking what disgusts me most about myself. Each time I get an offer, I fail to keep the meet. Sorry, that makes me a bad person. And I hurt others, but I cant help it. I have made a pay for arrangement for next week and think that I should keep it, dont want to let him down as hes sweet, and at least I know that he will like me.
    For the avoidance of doubt, I am no way anti gay, i Thing fab that you can be yourself and happy, and gay love is just a dream. But I am internalised homophobic. Hate my sexuality. And myself. They have put me on Lithium 2 weeks ago, but I have decided to drop out and am so angry about the mental heath act. They threatened to section me two years ago, to put me in a lock up loony bin, against my will, when I have not commited any crime. Power mad losers. Thanks for letting me sound off. Marish X(&&&)(&&&)
     
  2. RosePetals76

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    You should really talk with your practicioner before making any medication changes, and talk to a counselor about your internalized homophobia. Getting a good mental health plan working for you can really improve your quality of life.
     
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    ^^yes, that^^

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    Yes to the above posts. You need to get your medication at the right level. Listen to the doctors, and thereafter when you are stable deal with your sexuality.