I feel OK today. At least emotionally, I never feel just OK. OK scares me. I never have a wonderful day. It scares e because that's when the -$%%#% hits the fan either at home or work. Physically, I'm still having the severe abdominal pain. My husband was complaining about me being PMSie lol if that's even a word. I am having my period every third week. So, its two weeks off one week on.... The by no wants to do a surgery where she scrapes out the lining... Tmi We don't have the 2500 to do that so the past 4 or more months ugh! His thought process is that I'm not dying so I don't need it and that I need to learn to deal with stuff. That I just go to the Dr for the attention... Plus I get the really bad PMS now too. But besides that the depression is not as bad today and I haven't chatted with the crisis counselors for several days. I use online since I will never get the chance to go to one in person. It helps but it is hard because I never get the same person. I've went about a week without cutting. Which is good, just hoping the voice in my head won't come back soon. Just wanted to share and talk with someone tonight....
Days turn into weeks, weeks into months, and by then life has already moved on You've already gone a week. See what happens.
Poor lady I have these problems too and they're awful. My PMS makes my anxiety and depression 100% worse. Sometimes I wish I could just rip all these useless organs out lol. I'll never have children anyway. As for your depression, you're a strong lady. I can tell. Never give up.
