Feeling very low today. Cut myself earlier. Ostracized by family members for being gay, bullied in work for being quiet and don't relate to other people because of my social anxiety. I don't see the point any more.
There is a point. There's always a point. Please don't cut yourself. Look up a helpline in your area or a toll-free one and talk to someone. If you're being bullied for being quiet, that's ridiculous. You can dismiss those people as idiots. There's absolutely nothing wrong with being quiet. Personally, I'd rather more people were quiet. Please do something nice for yourself. One thing everyday. Even something small is good. Pick yourself some flowers, visit a library, look in the mirror and shout, "I am the best, damn PinkCarnation41 there is!". Because you are.
I've been low myself, many, many times... it's hard to break out of it on your own, writing and forums like this are great, but talking with someone is much better, if it's as bad as you say. You Need to talk to someone. Find a help line and call them, it helps. Trust me.
No matter how it feels, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. Don't give up, there are sooooo many moments of pure joy waiting for you down the track!
I'm sorry you're so low. There are so many better ways to feel than cutting. Take a walk, or run until you're out of breath. Try a cold shower. Call a friend. Please do something that makes you feel good without hurting yourself. We care about you. You are valid, and so are your feelings. Social anxiety sucks, it's plagued me for many years. Being gay can be great, though. Find your joy in it. Homophobes aren't worth the time or thought.
