I'm not sure I can do this. The enormity of everything is hitting me. What I've done to our family. What this means for my job and friends. I know my wife needs time and it has only been two days but I've never felt so isolated even when I was just dealing with this alone. With a five minute conversation I feel like I've made her not love me and I always thought our love was unshakeable. And I don't know what to do. I wish I could go back to just killing myself slowly, or i should have just done it quickly and not have done so much damage. It's too much. I don't know how I can do it. I don't know. I dint know how I can go on.
(&&&) Jjannon, hang in there. You are so strong, you can do this. Your wide will get through this too. This is an emotional time, it's going to start calming down. Keep building your support network and take it all one day at a time. (*hug*)
Breath, relax, you have taken the first major leap forward, you can do this and you will be ok, be strong, there's still a rough road ahead (&&&) we are here for you.
We are here for you Jjanon. From your posts you are really strong and I know and can see that you all will get through this together. Baristajedi is so right and take each moment as it comes try and not think ahead right now, and just take each day as it comes. Time will allow you all to come to terms with this and then you can start to look at your ideal future image. My thoughts are with you right now (*hug*) And please take great care of yourself at all times Jjanon
You are going to be okay. Things will improve. This is a darkness before the dawn. Hold you head high, know it takes time and patience, and keep movingmoving forward. Hugs to you, girl!
Thank you all so much. Being at work has given me something to focus on so that's good. I know she is hurting and I haven't given her time to come to terms with it yet. But she is saying things with the intention of hurting me. And I am already vulnerable and hurting too. She's never said anything to intentionally hurt me before, so I don't even know how to take it. I'm trying to give her space, but It is so hard. I thought I was prepared for any reaction, but I wasn't prepared enough apparently. I've never experienced something so painful.
I don't think there's a way to ever be prepared for the coming out process. I didn't think I was closeted, since I'd always said I was bi, but coming out lesbian was a major roller-coaster I wasn't prepared for. And that was even with mostly positive responses.