I've always had trouble letting myself relax with dating, and get close to people, even let myself feel anything. Part of that was likely not allowing myself be me before, but then after coming out, I've still been reserved. Well, this past week I met someone new. Now I find that I'm falling harder than I've ever fell, faster than I've ever fell. It's amazing and frightening all at once. I just started talking to her 8 days ago, but we've already had 3 dates. I want to be with her all the time, and that sounds crazy to me. We live about an hour apart, which annoys me, but might be good for keeping things from moving any faster than the lighting speed it's already hit. How did this happen? And is it okay? I'm usually very slow moving when dating, and I'm trying to keep things from going too far too fast, yet I want to just enjoy the ride.
That sounds wonderful. I say enjoy the ride. You might risk a broken heart, but I've found that the "if only's" stick with me longer. Good luck, I'm wishing happiness to you!
So happy for you! Must feel amazing.. Glad you are far apart, you are right, that definitely helps. It is also good that you are aware of what's going on relationship speed wise. This should keep you in check. But when it comes to falling in love no matter how you think or plan, it may go at its own speed and direction. Hang in there and enjoy
This sounds wonderful Rosepetals! I think it's a great thing and you should follow those feelings. I understand how terrifying it can be to feel so vulnerable and to fall so fast. But it certainly sounds lovely as well. Enjoy
She called me her girlfriend tonight! I've never been someone's girlfriend. It feels amazing. Almost too fast, but so amazing that I don't care. It's so hard to let her go at the end of the night. I hope some day I get to keep her.
