So, I haven't been here in a while, and last time I was here I was still in the "omg, am I really a lesbian???" phase of questioning. I was only out to three people, and I had not yet told my husband. I wanted to post for all the people who are, or will be in a similar situation. There is hope. It is hard and scary, but there is hope that living your life the way you are meant to is going to work out how it should. I was TERRIFIED to come out to my husband. I thought my world was ending. But I knew I needed to do it because it was KILLING me to have this big secret and live this false life. So, I set a date, and I did it. It was really hard. SO hard. I went away for the weekend with my kids afterward, and when I came back my husband and I discussed the terms of our separation and eventual divorce. He was kind. Really hurt, but kind. It went so much better than I expected it would. And now I get to live my life as I am meant to live it. I also came out to MOST of my friends and family. Some people still don't know, but they aren't close friends or family, so it's not a priority for me. My mom did not take it well, but she will hopefully come around. I just wanted to share! I feel sooooooooooo much weight off my shoulders now!
Thank you! NotMyName- I found it SO helpful to come here and read stories from people who had been where I was, and who made it through. It's not all sunshine and rainbows (ha), but the freedom in knowing I can be wholly myself is such a wonderful feeling. It gives me strength to know I can face the hard things that are still yet to come.