I came out to my daughter this morning. I am still undecided if I should have or not, but what is said, can't be unsaid....so its there. We were chatting about tattoos. She's just got her first one. I have been drawing my next one, and she was curious as to what it was of. <<<<----- Its my profile picture here. She asked had I finished it, so I said yes. She wanted to see it....so I showed her. I didn't have to say anything. She knew straight away. "Are you trying to tell me something, mum??" She said. By that time I already had tears down my face and all I could do was nod. She knows I am having problems at home (my husband is not her father) so all I could say was "....now you know why I cant stay" She hopped out her chair, came round the table and hugged me tight. (We were in a cafe having breakfast) "I love you no matter what" It was all i needed to hear. It wasn't my purpose to tell anyone just yet. But what's done is done. Now that I am home and she's gone home (she's 19 and at uni) my paranoia has set in. I'm crying again typing this, so I'm off to get cleaned up x
Its a testament to your relationship with your daughter that it came out in such a natural way. That's how it should be I think. blessings
Way to go, Hexamum! Whether it was intentional or not, it worked out well and now you've got your daughter in your corner for support as you go through this! I think that's just wonderful. It's got to be a relief, as well!
It is a relief of sorts. I am so pleased she's good with me. She never hesitated in comforting me. However on a personal note.... The box/closet has been opened, not only will the lid/door not shut again, but it has vanished, never to be seen again!! What if I want to get back in the box and hide again!!!!???? I can't. It's done. *scared* ---------- Post added 15th Sep 2016 at 06:50 PM ---------- Oh. And what you think to the drawing??!! <<<<~~~~~~
The drawing rocks, and you did awesome. Your daughter sounds fantastic, too. I know the feeling of having passed the point of no return. It's a little scary due to the unknown factor, but exciting too. Keep moving forward. For me, it's only gotten better, and you can reach a great new "normal". Hugs and congratulations to you!
Thank you. It's made me think more about the end goal. Being truthful, and honest to myself......for the first time in years.... Decades.... I feel old. Lol X
Hexamum, Would you really WANT to close the box again? Now you're on the road to exploring your sexuality and seeing who you can be a WHOLE person. Take Care.
Probably not, actually. But the box is safe. It's free from judgement and tears. Im still excited though x
Wow, I have goosebumps! That was very brave, good for you. And hugs. ---------- Post added 15th Sep 2016 at 03:14 PM ---------- I understand this completely. It's the devil you know... When I think of how much my life will change (and I am someone who loves change, but this would be big big change) if/when I come out, it makes me take serious pause when I am trying to evaluate how important my sexuality is to me...
Hey Hexamum! You did it!!! That box had run its course anyway. Sounds like your daughter was the perfect one to share your truth with. May your secrets feel lighter and lighter.
