How bizarre the mind is. As soon as it decides that something has clicked/changed, it can't go back to its original state. I have spent 27 years, sitting on the fence. (I was 16 when I lost my virginity, and I'm now 43) and now I've fallen off the fence, everything from before seems so hard to deal with now. I cannot even begin to think about sexual relations with my opposite sex partner, or any other guy. It makes me nervous at the very thought. But yet, this time 2 months ago, I could do it, just. Now it just seems impossible. I've tried to get my frame of mind back to how it was before....but it won't go. Like a round peg in a square hole.
It's called growth. You remind me of a quote I saw the other day: The truth will set you free, But first it will piss you off! blessings
What a fab saying. I may snag that!! I've emailed a counsellor today. Not to get my head in order per say, but to just chat to someone and (verbally) speak my mind. I'm also looking at other accommodation. I'm not getting back in the box. *shakes head*
Brave lady you are... Am seeing a counsellor on Thursday too...quaking in my boots...lol...I spoke to her on the phone today to confirm...I felt more like a mouse than a man...LOL! I wish you good luck...be free...burn the box!(!)
