When I was younger all I could think about were boys. I was never not thinking about them. I knew I was attracted to them and had hoped to one day be with one. As I got older though my inital way was set off by pretty women. It usdd to be just occasionally on tv from music videos but now its everywhere and I can't see myself ever having sex with a man. I've never dated a man or had a relationship. I look at women and think: How could you have sex with a man with abd stand seeing something like their private part? I've been trying not to think about it because I don't want to be with a womsn but my body tells me otherwise when I go out at a restaurant, grocery store, because my eyes are drawn to them ....
