I've been out for a few months now, and I've recently gone on my first date with another woman. It was nice. I felt very comfortable and relaxed. But of course, I feel like I'm missing something. There wasn't any nervousness or anxiety which is something I'm used to feeling all the time, especially when I dated men. At least with her, it was fine. But the moment a guy was around, I got nervous. Our waiter, for instance, was an okay looking guy. It made me a little paranoid. When I get anxious, I start to worry. Does this go away? Also, the date was good. But are you supposed to feel some sort of spark or feeling? The good news is, I know I'm gay and it makes me so happy. I've felt amazing over the last couple weeks. I'm not questioning myself anymore. I just want the anxiety that I feel every time I see a guy to go away. I'm also out at work which is something I didn't think would happen. Everyone is so supportive!
Congrats! I wonder if your nerves weren't so much that he was a guy but that somebody was witnessing you on a "gay" date. Is that possible? I could be out in left field here...
