I sometimes find myself wondering whether I've been questioning long enough, that I've just convinced myself I'm gay. However, my attractions towards women feel more real, than my attractions towards men ever did. With men it was always about outward appearances, being able to say I had a boyfriend, and the long term aim of settling down and having children. I didn't really think about the physical side. With women it's completely different, and I can understand why people date and actively seek relationships, which is something I never did because I had no drive to do so. And when I think back, being gay does make a lot of sense. I still have doubts, but they're not as frequent or as big as they were two/three months ago. I haven't got a specific question.
