As I grow older I realize that everywhere I go I notice women. When I see men on television, films, out and about I may notice them in general but when it comes to women I may not think of myself as gay but I look at them & check them out but have never come out to say anything or allow myself to think of it but whenever I am out somewhere I notice it and those closest to me notice me doing it as well. As a little girl I watched Turner Classic Movies Channel with my grandparents & always felt more drawn to performers like Cher Diana Ross Donna Summer and comedians Carol Channing, Joan Rivers and always liked and could tell the gay men as well. I was sad to learn as I grew older that the entertainment businesses was not that of what drew me in as a little girl growing up. One day my dream is to live in New York or San Francisco CA and feel like myself because my whole life I've felt like I have to hide and be this other woman. My dreams never were of getting married having kids having a normal life and the older I get the idea of men & sexuality doesn't make sense. Thank you for listening to me. I wish you all the best in life no matter who or what you love