Ok I may or may not be sitting here drinking by myself listening to my queer music playlist but I'm feeling all of these new emotions and I feel like sharing them somewhere. Maybe the emotions aren't fully new but the mix of emotions is new. ... so I've started seeing someone, she's sweet and lovely, so there's a warm fuzzy feeling coming from that. She said she's fancied me for a while :icon_redf she daydreams about me. And I'm feeling a growing sense of comfort, the world in which I'm being true to myself, open about who I am, is expanding by the day. I feel like I can see my life on the other side of the separation from my husband, and I like what I see. It feels real and right and probably just as messy as any other life I'd choose but it's the one I want, because it's the path where I'm me.
hang on... what?.... whooo hooo. you go Jedi (!)(!):eusa_danc:eusa_danc(*hug*) enjoy it hun. sooo freaking happy for you.
Thank you (&&&) (!):eusa_danc ride: ride: ride: I suppose I need to temper my happiness to deal sensitively with the big changes that are coming for my family. But at the moment I feel quite alive and free in a way I don't think I've ever felt before.
An extra large serving of congratulations order for baristajedi, coming right up ! . Genuinely feeling alive and free and good about life tells you that you are doing the right thing (*hug*)
Thanks everyone ride: The weekend has had its typical challenges, feeling a need to be hidden with my daughter's friends' parents at a birthday party today, etc. That repressive, closeted feeling is strong. But it didn't feel nearly as bad today, I feel like I've reached a certain point where things are starting to click and I'm seeing myself moving forward and feeling really positive about it.
i used to get this where i could be out here at home, but not at work or family events, etc. i still do about gender, but it's much better since i came out to the world at large. im sure you'll feel better when your fully out and not compelled to hide in certain situations; as im sure i will when i come out as Sarah.
