A few weeks ago I posted about my struggles and I thank everyone for everything heir input However, I decided that for my own mental health I need to give up on the idea that it will ever happen So in order to do this I have to give up any connection to being gay which means: No more: Checking out guys Watching anything gay related, movies,tv, porn No more toys No more going to the restaurant with the cute gay manager No more coming on EC It's all a reminder of what never will be I have to reinvest in my marriage and learn to enjoy things I used to. Thank you all again for your support
Quoting from one of your earlier posts... So I'll just point out... it sounds like you've never, ever, ever put yourself first. You can keep doing what your doing, but don't fool yourself into believing that you're doing it "for your mental health." On the contrary, what you are doing is, quite literally, going to kill you. You're drinking and overeating because you're fundamentally unhappy. You're taking care of everyone else but yourself because you don't believe you're worthy of love and belonging. And you're trying to convince yourself that you can put the genie back in the bottle. It doesn't work that way. You can try to do so, but you'll just keep being miserable, and likely even more miserable since you've already done most of the work to understand and accept yourself. I respect your decision, all I ask is that you think about it, and make sure it's what you really want.
