Hello. I am 33, and had been just in the beginning of transitioning where I used to live. I was out to my partner at the time, and was used to dressing and acting as I please, at least outside of work. Unfortunately, I had to leave the relationship I was in. The girl I was dating ended up being abusive, and very controlling. I am currently living in another state with one of my parents for an indeterminate amount of time. My family has mostly never known about me in this way. The parent I am currently staying with did once find my girls clothes in my room when I was in my very early 20s and there was no real conversation about it except a lecture about how was it put, being deceived by satan and that I was suffering from some obvious psychological or emotional problems that caused me to act that way. After which I was told I should move out on my own, which I did, and had been since. They since have assumed that I "recovered" from this "deviant behavior" and out of the (genuine) kindness of their heart allowed me to move back in to get out of the situation I was in with my ex at the time. Unfortunately this leaves me absolutely nowhere to be who I really am, so it is essentially like being back where I was as a teen and young adult. I have never felt more in the closet about my true self than ever. I can't come out to my parent for fear of losing the only safe home I know, but living like this is really hard, and depressing. Has anyone here ever been in a similar situation, or possibly has any insight or advice they could give me? Deep down I fear this may just be the life I have to accept for the time being. Just wondering if anyone out there has had to go through anything like this. I don't really have any friends out here anymore, not since I was a teen. So I'm kind of feeling on my own more than ever. Thanks for the read. Take care all. -Kida
