Ok for apparently no reason I started to think about my catalyst this afternoon (FYI: I barely know her & she's unavailable so dating her is not possible). But since this afternoon I've had serious anxiety that makes me almost feel sick. When I first felt a change (or realization) in my sexual orientation only a few months ago, I really didn't feel bad about it. Now, the ups and downs in my mood since this whole thing started have really made me fatigued. I honestly don't feel well half the time. I wish things could just go back to the way they were 3 months ago when I was blissfully unaware of any issues as to my sexual orientation. I know lots of you have felt emotional pain as well. How the heck have you dealt with that? If I could just get temporary relief from this panicked feeling I'd be grateful!
When I get moments of anxiety, I find a quiet place where I can sit and simply contemplate. I take deep breaths, close my eyes, and think about what is triggering the anxiousness. I then think about all of the curve balls that have been thrown at me in life and how I have worked through them. I compare what I have previously overcome to what I am now thinking about. And I realize, this too shall pass.
I have funny shows I watch on Netflix or Amazon (Fraiser, Friends, that kind of thing). I try to spend at least 10-15 minutes a day doing deep breathing. I write. I play video games if my brain just needs a break from the whole thing and I want something that will engross me. Oh, and I come on here. I know what you mean about wishing you could go back. But being who you are is going to be worth what you're dealing with now.
Writing! I swear by it. Something about getting those thoughts out of your head and onto paper....amazing. i also like to draw or do something creative, something that makes me happy and has an end result.
