Today feels like a beautiful day. I'm in love, so in love. I didn't know I could ever feel this way, I didn't know the world could be so beautiful, that I could feel so happy and full and warm and alive with another person. I'm me. I'm being and feeling and expressing me nearly completely. I walk through life being myself and I feel like I can be open almost completely. Im starting to have more and more casual conversations where I can say things about my life, lgbt things I do, places I go, mentioning my girlfriend. I'm so close to being out even with he people in my ex's and my combined circle of friends. I'm nearly there! Things are falling into place one by one. I'm not done with the separation of course, but I have that visa appointment tomorrow and it leaves me feeling really hopeful. And this morning I just got good news on another practical thing I've been working sorting out. Tonight I have time on my own with my daughter. I feel more present with her now. yesterday she was so incredibly grumpy, but I had all this patience in reserve, because I'm not at odds with her dad anymore, I'm not at odds with *ME* anymore, and my life feels like it may be moving forward. I'm just feeling really really good, full of hope - for my life, my daughter's life, for the future.
As you see finality coming form your separation, you starting to feel the weight begin to lift. This is just the first part! Embrace the love for yourself!!!!
(*hug*) ride: It does feel that way, it feels so freeing. Even if the visa appointment leads to a longer/more difficult process then I want, I see an end in sight, it's amazing.
Thank you Sarah so are you!!! I just can't seem to focus on much at work, ha I feel too much energy today
Thanks Cam! (*hug*), you are amazing, and amazingly kind I'm starting to come down a little from the high and feeling that sense of free falling I get sometimes. All of these changes, all of these good things I'm hoping to reach and establish come from a huge leap of faith (all of us are taking that leap). There's a chasm of unknown and unfamiliar under our feet while we're jumping from one side to the other. That gives me a really terrifying feeling sometimes. But - I KNOW I'm on the right path. I just have to keep telling myself that. I'll be back on solid ground soon, and it will be a place where I'm being completely true to me. I'm taking a moment to reflect and taking a deep breath. We've got this, right? I'm starting to feel strong and calm again after writing this.
