My whole life i have thought i was a bisexual started around 14. My first sexual experiences have been with men. After that i have been in relationships with women. These were reasonable good, so was the sex. I can say very good. However in my sexual fantasies there are mostly performing men last 10 years. before that it was 50 / 50. The good sex i have had with women is never coming back in these fantasies. Although i have had also a lot of good sex with men i have never been in a relationship with a man. I simply never found the right one, I think. Or never have fallen in love for one. The strange thing is that i have been questioning my entire life. I have never embraced my bisexuality totally. There has always been this nagging doubt. Very annoying and disturbing. Last 5 years these gay feelings became more on the front. I understand now that I always have been struggling with the question if I did like men and questioning if i was maybe gay. . But the main case is that i shouldn't have asked my self if i liked men but if I 'still' like women. In the past I have liked women very much. However over the years my interest women fade away slowly. (?? I went from Kinsey 2 to a 5) Now i have to accept that women are not really for me anymore. What i mean with that is that i think that I'm to much gay now to stay in a relationship with a woman. With that knowledge, I still can't imagine a relationship with a man. I have honestly liked and loved women, but now... So my questions: Anyone here who went the same way? Going slowly from bisexual to gay? And whit that I don't mean over a few years but 15, 20 or maybe more years? With greetz
