Closeted gay in a straight marriage. Most times it's okay. Don't know how or if I want to come out. But somedays it can really ache. Like...just wanting a man. To be with one emotionally, physically, everything. Wake up in the middle of the night wanting to reach over and feel a man, only to find my wife. And then all the guilt and fear that comes with it. Not really a need for advice, just wanted to get it out there. Haha.:bang:
Have you thought about going to a therapist?? It might help putting your thoughts in order... It definitely sounds to me that you're in a marriage that isn't working at its best. Vent all you want. Whatever decision you make is up to you. If been married to a woman is something you've always longed for them, then go ahead. If not, you're not being fair to her.
