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Feel like crying....

Discussion in 'LGBT Later in Life' started by Rose27, Mar 26, 2013.

  1. Rose27

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    I'm not a cryer but very close now. Just overwhelmed. Too much sh**t all at once. Holidays suck having to put on the show for ultra conservative inlaws. Insert 100+ Fbombs of your choice here. When do I get to be me?
     
  2. Lexington

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    Presumably when the holidays are over...and when the inlaws are further away. Hang tight. (*hug*)

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    Rose, I hear you. I had to lead a holiday party yesterday for my family, and it was way too intense emotionally. After the dinner, I just retreated to the bedroom and didn't even finish leading it. Dealing with my attractions was too much to deal with. After only my family and girlfriend were there, I came out to them. That went really well, but yes, being there and being a closet gay is so freaking hard. Next year, I hope to have what I need to do it better.
     
  4. Rose27

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    Thanks-Lex and Musician.- If I came out to inlaws it would be equivalent of taking out a newspaper announcement. I wish I could be me w/o hurting people. Its all or nothing right now.
     
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    Do you have any ways to physically help relieve the stress? Running, biking, boxing, etc? I'd recommend that. Get out by yourself for a bit and come back once you have had some time to center yourself if possible.
     
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    Playing straight for the family certainly does suck, especially around holidays where there's a lot of it all at once, but sometimes it has to be done in order to have family. I try to make time specifically for something gay when I finally escape - extra time on EC or other gay sites, or buy a book or some other treat.

    Best wishes. (*hug*)