At my school there is a lesbian couple who like hold hands and stuff in the hallways. Everytime I see them in the hall I realize how much I want that. I want to be in a realtionship.Yet another part of me doesnt want to be out and open at all. Im so torn.
Being in a happy relationship IS amazing - no question. But try to keep something in mind. You (hopefully) don't want "a girlfriend". You want to meet somebody that you like so much (and who likes you so much) that you want to BE their girlfriend. Far too many people fall into the trap of "I want a boy/girlfriend", and end up with somebody that they really don't click with, just because it means "now I've got a boy/girlfriend". Don't ever look for somebody to just be your girlfriend. Look for somebody that you mesh with so well that becoming girlfriends is a natural progression from that. Lex
I think that if you look carefully at what's tearing at you, you'll see which way to go. On one hand, you don't want to be out and open at all. This part of you has obviously been diminishing over time, because you're out to at least a couple of people which you weren't before. On the other hand, you want what they've got - a girlfriend you can be openly holding hands with. You probably didn't even know you wanted that a couple of years ago, so this part is growing. If you just go by the numbers, it won't be long before your desire to be in an open relationship will outweigh your fear of coming out by a large margin. So you might as well go with the numbers on this one! Besides, which of the two scenarios is most likely to make you happy in the long run - hiding yourself and lying to the world, or being in a relationship and being able to openly hold hands with someone you love? I'm thinking that the answer will be obvious to you...
mmhmm. i agree. that would b cool. but im not really one for pdas. its cool that ur school is liberal enough that ppl dont got a problem with them. at least, i dont think
