Ok, so I am 29 y/o FTM, 2 years on hormones/pre surgery. I've been with one woman for 10 years now, I lost my virginity to her, and have never been with anyone else. She was straight/married when I met her, and loved me enough to adapt to my body parts as they are. She isn't the one with the problem though, it's me. Sexually she has never been able to make me orgasm, I can manually/alone, but never with her. Since I've been on hormones, I have been watching male gay porn, and female anal porn. It sparked my interest, so I have experimented with anal play, and I enjoy it. I love watching a guy masturbate and also have sex with other guys, especially when they both climax, it's just exhilarating to me. I masturbate at least 5 times a week this way and I can't seem to get enough of it. I haven't told my girlfriend, and I don't think I want to yet. I don't want to leave her for anyone else, I just don't know how to make this work. I don't want to secretly be gay (into males) and not know it, and she has expressed that it would break her heart if I turned out that way. So with what I explained, could it be possible that I am into guys that way? Or maybe I'm just exploring my body more and finding what it likes. :help:
I think its just exploring the main question you need to ask yourself is. Can I see myself with a man? Maybe there is a 0.01 chance your bi I think you need to find out more ^_^
That's the problem, I don't want a relationship with a man, but I wouldn't mind an "encounter" with a man, but as a gay male would. As bad as it sounds if I do happen to be Bi, then I wouldn't ever share that with anyone else, I'd feel ashamed kinda.
