I'll cut to the chase here. I have trouble finding the courage to search for LGBT sites in my country. It's not internal homophobia or anything like that, but more because of previous experience. I always used to bump into people who would do nothing but hook up, and look down upon my kind, who want a proper relationship with feelings and emotions. Everyone was the kind of "cool guy" who has to use hair gel otherwise he can't even leave the house. So there's a great mental block now not letting me try again, but I have to because I need to learn about how gay things work here and start talking to people who can actually understand what it means to have no LGBT centers, or any kind of facility to help you. I just don't know how to overcome this. I don't want to be so disappointed again and fall back into depression. :help:
