Uncontrollable Depression

First things - Please do NOT kill yourself.
Suicide is never the answer. I know it seems like it does now, but what if you fail at killing yourself? How much worse will you feel then? And what if you DO succeed? What about all your family and friends? I know you say you don't feel noticed or cared about - But please believe me when I say that you are the furthest thing from worthless. You suffering from a fairly serious depression and you NEED help.

You do not deserve to be made to feel like this - I'm sure you have many qualities which are unique and admirable - listening to whatever people saying is not helping you and you need to realise that.

And if you are in a wheelchair in a few years - that doesn't mean your quality of life will be any worse. It will be different - yes, but that doesn't mean it will be worse. And I think you need to at least TRY to be positive. I know that sounds like bullshit - but I've found it helped me - and I've been exactly where you are right now. Not quite the same situation, but I've been exactly that low and lower.

Please please go and talk to someone about how you feel - you really do need help.
You are always more then welcome to talk to me.

 

Do NOT kill yourself!!! Please, everyone here cares about you so much.

Suicide is never an option! Please, please, please get some help!!!

I urge you to talk to someone, anyone. A friend, a parent, another relative, the police, the hospital, a counselor, a therapist. Please, please, please go talk to someone!!!

 

Please everybody that is online right now, send positive good thoughts to this girl. She needs our help. I'm very very worried.

 

We're here for you. You're not alone, and you don't have to be someone you're not while you're on this website. We accept you for exactly who you are. Suicide is NEVER the answer--there are always options. Think back to a happy time--any happy time--and focus on your emotions at that moment. You said you had a friend you were going to tell on Monday--think forward to that day and think about her and how great of a friend she is.
Please, PLEASE stay with us. We're here. We're listening to you. And we love you just as you are--you don't have to pretend here.
Please.

 

Just like everyone else has said we're here for you~! And Suicide is never the answer~!

 

Just so everyone knows, she is fine. Thanks for your good thoughts.

 

first off, DO NOT KILL YOURSELF. put down the pills, the knife, whatever it is, get rid of it. get it out of your vacinity while you read this.

secondly, i know what you are going through. it was not my family who told me how terrible "that" was. it was my church family. they were all traditional christians and catholics who told me how sick i am without knowing that i had even the sightest liking of girls. i was told it was an abomination. i was told "they" would go to hell, no questions asked.

guess what? you arent going to go to hell for killing yourself or being a lesbian. i know that God made us, and I know he loves us all. he does not make mistakes. he doesnt just exclude people that he himself made. he wouldnt be the God i believe in if he did. your parents believe in what the old testament says. the old testament was written and translated by humans. christianity believes in what jesus said and taught. jesus never said anything about homosexuality. he taught love and exceptance of all people. remember that.

 

Her "venting" involved announcing that she was in the process of committing suicide. We did the only thing we could at this point - we tracked her down, and called the police to help intervene. If that makes us untrustworthy, color us untrustworthy. But it would be far more "dangerous" to do nothing in such a situation.

Lex

 

I am closing this thread for the reasons Lexington has stated and also because we do not condone verbal abuse directed at the moderators.

 

The few posts here do not reflect the drama that went on here a few hours ago. There is a thread in the staff room with almost 100 posts over about 3 hours regarding this.

Several mods and advisors were involved. Those in direct contact with unouxx3me genuinely believed that she was in the process of committing suicide and that her life was in danger. They kept her talking and tried to get her to contact the police or a helpline. Meanwhile others searched and gathered information on her identity and location etc online and passed this onto the police. Others offered advice, suggestions and support. A superb example of compassion and teamwork by everyone involved.

Then when it turned out that the suicide attempt did not take place and the response above was posted, clearly everyone was pissed off and deflated, although relieved that unouxx3me was not in any immediate danger. Regardless, I am proud of how everyone worked together and of what they achieved. I hope that we never have another situation like this, but that if we do then that it is handled as well as this one was.

unouxx3me has been banned temporarily for 24 hours while she and everyone involved calms down. We will be attempting to contact her later and see where we go from here.