I may have cancer again and I'm not sure I can handle this!

I'm not sure I want to know! I have been clean for years, but I rolled my car during a dui. September 9 and I stepped out of my Volvo unhurt to be arrested. I ran into a light pole than took out a sign to jump over a hundred feet to roll the car over four hundred feet. I was hospitalized to be sure no concussion to be told I need a biopsy done.I am getting weaker over recent month and cannot stop coughing. I put a album up if you want to see what drinking and driving can do! I am facing probation and no driver's license for six months! I have no car now and no husband anymore, I'm scared and need lot's of prayers! I was June in jail and big scary guys treated me like a lady including one accused of murder who sat on my bed talking after I cried on the phone talking to Dweebees my little dog I told mommy is communing soon! Other big men behind him in rank treated m well like putting me in front of the food line and removed my tray when I was finished eating, calling me June. I am not afraid of who I am and proud to be me even locked with forty men. I cannot be John as I never have been a male.I added this part to tell you be who you are and most will accept you.act phony and others won't accept you! I walked in laughing at my mug shot making me look like Cruella DeVille which was Michael' s running joke name for me. I admitted who I am and they agreed about my picture looked like her. Those of you who who have identity problems and wonder how I get treated like a woman though I don't cross dress anymore. I am a wonderful woman with a servant's heart named June! Please pray for me and hello my friends who have not seen me here in awhile! June

 

Yes, men tend to scare me and I never went to jail before, I didn't know what to expect. Never to be compared to their wives and number two and three in the pecking order had Chihuahua dogs at home part of their families too.big scary alpha men. Your Spirit, essence is your gender in my opinion. Yes my body is considered male. I am me! There was a time I pretended to be a man like my given name but I looked ridiculous! I am most comfortable around other women but never can keep one as a friend to my dismay! ? A week from Monday I have my first Dr appointment and I am terrified as I can't go through chemotherapy again! Look at my car in my album on here,I was not even wearing a seatbelt and even rolled it over 70mph without a scratch to go through hell again scares me and chemotherapy is hell on earth! I again have no husband to help me through it again this time and no license to drive now either. The insurance will buy me a replacement Volvo S80 T6 as I have great coverage, who will drive me in it? I've never felt this helpless... June

 

I also still have a Norwalk juicer from before, this will be my fourth go and I am not in my 20's anymore. I don't have the strong will to survive this time.I l know we can handle what comes, but life seems too overwhelming. June