yo. Im a trans man who has a bit of plumbing issues…. I have a STP that has a medicine spoon to carry the pee into a special packer (with tubing) to carry it out if the body. While I am trying to get the position right, theres just one problem…. I can't pee! I want to go, and need to go. Right when Im about to let loose, I lock up. So, I stand there for 20 mins at home at the toilet hoping to pee but nothing happens. I tried at a urinal in a single bathroom (one door, one toilet) and no luck. I do have anxiety, and I just can't go. My urethra locks up in different areas, and I can't get the flow started. What do I do? How do I get over this??? Why do I lock up and how to I stop it from doing that? I don't want to sit anymore… I want to stand and use the urinal like a normal man… Flowing water and counting tiles haven't worked. Please help…. :icon_redf:help::tears: