I've just been in a rut for a while. I hear fucking shit constantly and my parents think im malignant (faking). I constantly have thoughts of suicide and self-hate and just want it all to go away. i have a million reasons to end it all and a millions reasons not to. out of options and dont know what to fucking do. how do i get out of this rut im in and stop being so fucked up constantly? sorry for being so vulgar
Don't. Don't commit suicide. For all the reasons not to. Because it sucks now, but try to look forward to a future time in your life where it's okay. And..live for that future. I don't know what else to say... Would you mind sharing more about how you are?
100 reasons to not commit suicide 1) It's not worth it 2) we'll miss you 3) you have a bright future 4) think of everything you've always wanted to do 5) it DOES get better 6) I'd miss you 7) I care 8) there's so much you would miss out on doing 9) you ARE worth it 10) a time will come when you will be all better and even stronger because of this 11) you won't be able to listen to music if you die 12) you are amazing and you are perfect to somebody 13) somebody is looking for you in every person they meet 14) being alive is really good 15) not being alive is really bad 16) going to diners at three in the morning 17) singing in the rain 18) treehouses 19) eating tiny sandwiches 20) eating tiny sandwiches in a treehouse 21) laughing so hard your stomach hurts 22) smiling 23) meeting your soulmate 24) drive in movies 25) somebody looks up to you 26) somebody need you 27) going to the beach 28) doing what you love 29) achieving your goals 30) the smell of new shoes 31) taking warm showers on a cold day 32) taking cold showers on a hot day 33) cuddling 34) fuzzy blankets 35) spashing in puddles 36) swimming 37) the way it feels like you are flying when you swim 38) fresh cut grass smell 39) kissing in a tree 40) love 41) you can do it 42) I believe in you 43) you are great 44) you are better than this 45) difficult roads lead to beautiful destinations 46) more Harry Potter books could come out, you never know 47) you could develops super powers 48) dancing in your room when nobody's watching 49) singing in the shower 50) ice cream 51) new cars 52) pandas 53) going to the zoo 54) sleeping after a long day 55) waking up to the smell of nice breakfast 56) seeing your kids grow up 57) seeing your grandkids grow up 58) being happy again 59) seeing how far you've come 60) going to the doctor and them telling you you are healthy 61) wishing on a shooting star 62) blowing out 100 birthday candles 63) petting a cat 64) the joys of life 65) Breathing in spring air 66) you are you 67) doctor Seuss books 68) Summer 69) winter 70) spring 71) fall 72) learning people's names 73) getting mail 74) sleeping in your own bed 75) lists 76) of the reasons 77) not to commit suicide 78) you know you can make it 79) I know you can make it 80) we all know you can make it 81) sharp crayons 82) singing stupid songs and not caring 83) not caring what people think of you 84) finding out new hobbies 85) which, for all you know, could be yodeling 86) yodeling 87) knowing someone loves you 88) knowing you love someone 89) knowing that you matter 90) live like you are dying 91) putting in 110% to impress someone 92) your first job interview 93) your last job interview 94) retirement 95) please don't 96) please 97) you can make it through this 98) I promise 99) I don't break promises 100) we love you And a hug (*hug*)
well for one AsiaJ33 has some fucking dedication to this forum, and thank you guys so much. im actually feeling a little bit better and this post just made me so happy this morning!
20% of that is not true, 80% of that is childish and silly, 100% is cheesy and infantile. I'm sorry, but if you're gonna try to cheer someone up, don't say stupid things to irritate them more than they already are (superpowers? Tiny sandwhiches? Please, that sounds like something you'd hear on nick.jr or the toddler channel).
I've been there too I know it really super doesn't seem like it I know everything is dark and it feels like there's no escape. But every time I've made it through a suicidal feeling, I've thought back and thought "wow what the snap was I thinking." Lately, this page has been helping me to come down off of an anxiety attack self-harm feeling episode: Suicide: Read This First To me it's not about being "strong" or "weak", it's about having the courage to make it through another day and keep believing in the future. I hope you can start to feel better soon, even one good day is a huge relief.
Um... Sorry? Sometimes the little things in life are what help. I don't think it's completely necessary to belittle my effort because you don't agree with it. Thanks for the comment though, it really made my day... :icon_redf
C'mon, that's just rude. It's a nice list that is meant to cheer up those having problems, and it's a sweet and awesome effort. I think you're the one being "childish". The list was light-hearted. You don't need to tear someone down just because you don't like tiny sandwiches and superpowers (who doesn't like those?!)
Well, 3n specifically thanked her efforts...and it cheers me up to see someone trying so hard. It's sweet. While you may not agree with it, and people have different ways of feeling better, it's not good to put one way down...that was kinda rude.
A nice list, but insulting to people who are going through shit. Superpowers (unrealistic) and tiny sandwhiches are nice, but they aren't gonna help me cope. "You are you"? Bitter, lonely, and worthless aren't necessarily qualities I'm proud of, so that doesn't help. Kissing trees? Umm, what?
You may find, if you really think about it, that the things that really count in life; the ones that are most memorable, are not about achieving the grand Goals or accomplishments, not even loving the great loves, but the seemingly "small" things that fill the spaces in between. I remember my sister, the one who passed away already 6 weeks ago, for the small, kind gestures of affection, for the funny way she scratched her belly when we were kids, for the thoughtful and kind way she would look at the smallest situations...this is where the treasures are in life. The small and precious moments that follow each other, every day.
Hey. The text in bold is not at all necessarily true. I'm struggling with suicidal thoughts on a weekly basis because a part of me has given up already, and I still found this very sweet, so thanks, AsiaJ. Even so, I know it's not you talking, DanDan, it's the depression making you see things negatively and making you irritable. I know that's not what you want to hear, but it's true. Don't take it out on others. It won't help you.
Don't try it. It really isn't easy to kill yourself and you could just injure yourself very bad. It's a 100% sure thing you will die without even trying. Just be patient. I'm almost 60 so I'm hoping it won't be much longer. I try to be positive and have fun. I also work hard at avoiding problems, like prison. Though in prison I suppose a gay guy might get some action.
I don't think the long list is silly at all. Different things help different people. Studies of happy people have been done, and it was found they are able to find pleasure and motivation in small things. I am blessed to be one of those people, though I have also gone through circumstances that led me to the depths of despair a couple of times. I'll give you a not-so-nice reason from my own experience. Someone will have to see the aftermath of your suicide. I had to see the crumpled body of a young man just after he jumped from a bridge onto a frozen river... with the pool of blood on the white snow getting larger and larger. It is an awful thing to leave others with. Life is precious. There is only one you in all of history.
