Before you transitioned, or even 'knew' for sure that you were trans, did you masturbate? As a teenage boy, though knowing you were a girl, did you masturbate, and did you feel guilty about it? Desperately need some other perspectives. Thank you so much.
Guilty as charged. But then I learn other techniques to make it feel like I am doing it as a girl, which you can easily searched for on the internet (not sure if we can show R-18 material here). Also, female PoV...uh..."visual aids" also helps, also, easily searched for on the internet. I know it is really annoying and dysphoric, but you can't stop a biological urge. But know that it is your body that make you feel that way, not yourself.