Hi, Last year, really bad things happened to me and I got very depressed, I thought a lot about commiting suicide, I talked about it with two friends and they kept me alive, then I started going to college and things started going well. But now these thoughts came back, and the worst part of it is that nothing bad is happening, there's no reason for me to think about suicide but it's happening. When I go to sleep I start to think a lot about my future and worst cenarios possible, I think that I wont get a job, that I'll be forever alone, never find someone to love, never be happy at all and then I think "why I should live a life like this?". I think I need a psychiatrist because I'm starting to get crazy about it, I don't want to have these thoughts and nightmares where I see myself jumping off a building or shooting a bullet in myself. Please, someone, give me any advice, anything. I'm in despair. - lonelyjamie
It is possible you are still in some sort of depression from last year, which gives you these negative feelings and takes away motivation for the future? A psychiatrist would help but you may also get help by discussing your problems on Ec ... or with a good trusted friend in real life ?? Maybe your college has a student counsellor too? It is not normal to have a negative view of the future. Especially someone who is 18 , and so I think it would be good to try and break out of the thought patterns. Also by taking up new interests, socialising more and not "ruminating" on negative things.
