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Can someone help im so confused

Discussion in 'Physical & Sexual Health' started by somedude18, Apr 18, 2012.

  1. somedude18

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    Hey I'm 18 and ive always been attracted to girls well pretty much always but ill get into that later. It all started about a month ago when i was feeling pretty down about there being no afterlife,being really lonely and feeling hopeless so i sorta was just depressed about everything and not wanting to die but at the same time not wanting to live , but then i started having insomnia for a month and this headache that lasted a few weeks. after they went away i started looking at guys and they made me really uncomfortable for some reason i guess i don't really find them attractive because it pretty much every dude and this is making me uninterested in women. I also feel like im not really there. but this isnt the first time this has happened when i was in 10th grade there was this gay kid that made me uncomfortable but in the same way im uncomfortable and awkward around a girl i like but then that feeling eventually went away i was also very depressed and lonley then as well. I even have looked up gay pornography and it doesn't turn me on but it doesnt disgust me either well neither does anything really i also haven't been scared in a while which is really weird because its kinda like ive gotten to the point of just not caring about anything to be scared or grossed out about. I dont know what to do, I just wish everything would be like it used to something about thinking about a girl to love just make me sad so maybe theres something i just havnt been able to accept about moving on. also everything that used to make me happy isnt appealing at all anymore be it video games, girls, anime,drinking,weed,nothing. last time i felt like this i feel in love a girl which made me attracted to lots and lots of girls. Maybe im just depressed but then again maybe im turning gay but how can i just turn gay and hate everything i once loved that made me the person i am today. If you need more details to help me just ask ill gladly help.
     
  2. alwayshope11

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    Hey .. welcome to EC!.. First off, you probably arent "turning gay." If the gay porn and looking at guys, etc. doesnt turn you on, then chances are you arent gay. I would suggest talking to a counselor at school or a close friend..thinking things over and over in our heads never helps much, but you came to the right place to talk.
     
  3. speedracing22

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    Hi - Welcome to the site. It sounds like you've got a lot going on. I would agree with alwayshope11 that seeing a counselor is probably a good place to start. By talking to someone it really helps to get to the bottom of things. I sometimes get down and depressed, and after I started seeing someone I found different ways to get myself out of it. Also gay or not, joining this site is a good idea too, because it's always good to have people to talk to when you're feeling down.

    As for you thinking you might be gay (or bi), anything is possible, but don't just start to label yourself as something until you know for sure. Depression makes people do weird things, so I would try and work through some of your other issues and just let everything fall into place.