Finding a boyfriend?

Hey I first just want to say thanks for reading this! I know I don't know any1 here, and yet I'm hoping for answers from strangers. So, I say thanks to all who do .

So, at first, I was really depressed when I kinda found out I was gay. I didn't really know what to do, or who to talk to, or....anything really. I was super desperate, and came out to some of my friend who I thought was hot (hoping for the best i guess). Anyways, that didn't turn out so well, and even though they said they were cool with who I am, they kinda stopped talking to me.... Like I was a burden?

Then after awhile, I just tried to shove everything out. I convinced myself I could live without relationships, and if I just focused on my school work, I could be successful etc. Anyways, 2nd year in college at 20 yrs old, I started like, doing really bad in my classes. Not because they were difficult, but more so because I lost my....spark?... and I really didn't feel like doing anything. Instead, I would just sleep all the time and just think to myself "Well, what's the point?"

That brings me to now. I'm a little bit happier because (now don't laugh at me haha) I bought a game called Common Grounds. It's a little dating sim I found, and if you look past the part where animals are everywhere, it's actually a really good game (well i think so haha). ANYWAYS the whole point is that in the game I found a "boyfriend", and even though it was made up, it gave me a taste of what real love could mean. The compliments, wanting to hang out, totally getting someone.....just everything really. I can't explain it.

Now this next part is importantish lol

Well, I'm still a single virgin, and I'm still closeted, but my problem seems to be meeting people. I'm too scared to go to the LGBT club on campus here because...well idk who I will find. (like a crazy guy or somthin). Like, I want to date guys, not guys who act like girls? I've dated girls, and I just don't like it. I want to find someone who's chill, likes to do things, play video games....idk someone I can relate too. And I guess i'm scared that if I go, I might not find someone out there like me.... find out that I will always be alone.....but that thinking will always make me alone :/.

So, I guess I'm looking for advice? I really really just want someone to talk to mostly, like a best friend or somthing. I don't have any friends right now other than my roomates here, but they all kinda bash on gays all the time, and make fun of people who they think could be gay. My family as well I cant go to for... reasons. I'm really really trying to stay upbeat and hopeful of things, but deep down, I'm just really sad.

Again, if anyone made it through all that, thanks . I know it's alot, and mabye even confusing....but my writing is exactly how i feel right now: overwhelmed and confused on how to continue.

Edit: I hope I put this post in the right place! Sry I'm new >.<