So, I just kinda wanted to get people's take on this: I'm an 18 year old girl and a few months ago I started to wonder if I was a lesbian. It sorta started with me realizing that really wanting to sleep with a girl maybe meant I wasn't straight. I honestly can't even remember the last time i fantasized about being with a guy. I also haven't really had a proper crush on a guy for as long as I remember (though I sometimes get these weird obsessions with guys-not really crushes- but they usually go away when I see the guy again); I didn't even like my (now-ex) boyfriend when we started dating. Then the main reason we broke up was because I never wanted to have sex, on top of that I thought he looked funny naked (I don't know if that means anything). Also, I don't know if it makes a difference, but I much prefer being with girls socially, guys make me feel awkward. However, while I'll see some women on tv or whatnot who I think are attractive and kinda give me butterflies, I rarely see women in real life who I would want to be with... (Also, I'm pretty much sure that I'm not asexual or anything like that) Thanks
I would say you're still young and inexperienced to know what you really want. Go and meet people. Focus on lesbians/bis first if you want to stop wondering what it would feel like to sleep with a girl. Keep your mind/sexuality open. Not liking your ex-boyfriend doesn't necessarily mean you won't like all the remaining males in the world. Feeling awkward around guys is a normal response for some girls and doesn't mean you're a lesbian. It could be guys your age aren't on the same wavelength as you are. Again, you're still young and you don't need to decide on a label. You like what you like. You don't need to read too much into your actions/thoughts.
lol it sucks.. I wrote you my answer and accidentally deleted it. let's start to write it all again! - For years, like you, I was attracted only to women that I saw on TV, movies and stuff, and never really felt attraction for girs from my real life. But! one day I met a woman in my real life and I was attracted to her physically and emotionally. And still, even I have feelings for a girl, I'm still confused about my sexual orientation. I don't say that it will happen to you and you will have feeling for a girl. What i'm trying to say is that you never know what is going to happen in your future. If you will have feelings for a woman, go for it! And maybe you will fall inlove with cute guy? that's okay too. I know it could be hard to stop think about who you attracted to and all that stuff. I tell people just live their life and see what happen, while I myself have a hard time with stop thinking about it. maybe you just curios? and maybe not. The fact that you didn't like your boyfriend and didn't want to have sex with him, it doesn't mean that you are into girls. you don't have to like all the guys in the world, and you don't have to feel like you want to have sex with every guy that you see. If you are not attractive to one guy, it doesn't mean that you are not going to be attracted to any guy. Also, most of the time women feel awkward with men and much more comfortable with women.