Bisexual or lesbian

Hi all,

ok here goes 'feel like I'm dumping my heart on the table'

For a long time I felt odd as I never did fit in at home or at school I was always bullied for being boyish and not being the typical girly girl. At 16 I knew I liked girls but hoped it would go away thought maybe it was a one off. I was attracted to guys too but the connection wasn't the same. I went through a long period of feeling like a boy trapped in a girls body and went through a long period where I cut my hair short and dressed like a guy (jeans, t-shirt) tbh I still do that's how I am comfortable although I try to be feminine sometimes. And when I had short hair that was the only time I recall ever feeling confident not sure why. But yeah I was bullied for being a lesbian and at the time I didn't even know what a dyke was lol.


Events that lead me to me question weather I am bi or lesbian:

I thought I was Bisexual until someone came into my life and definitely felt that strong connection but I didn't act on it as I'm in a relationship and this made me realize I can't hide my feelings for women anymore and realized recently that I am not sexually or emotionally attracted to men at all anymore but I am definitely sexually and emotionally attracted to women.
The realization that I'm 100% gay but now I know things are going to change.


im kind of confused I think the way I feel about men is the way im supposed to feel about women and the way I feel about men is how I feel about women.


I definitely feel a stronger emotional and sexual connection with women. The attraction I felt for her was magnetic like being pulled against my own will but I felt confident at the same time and it felt more natural. I wonder if this means I was gay all along but just didn't want to accept it due to fear of rejection by family and friends.

I wonder if that's why I feel more comfortable around guys and awkward around girls :S



sorry if it's a bit long