Ok. So when I was in 6th grade I became a ladies man. All the girls wanted to date me and I did. In 7th grade I made a big mistake and cheated on my girlfriend. Ever since then it's hard for me to find a girlfriend. I'm going into junior year and I can't tell if I'm straight or bi. Lately I've been having the urge to do stuff with guys like oral and anal. I find kissing a guy is gross though. I've done stuff with girls before but don't know how to find a guy to do stuff with. I've found some of my moms sex toys and I've been using them and I kinda like it. I don't wanna consider myself bi until I sleep with a guy and see if I like it. I watch both gay and straight porn. I even watch transgender porn. How can I find a guy to do stuff with or just determine what my sexual orientation is?
Welcome to EC! This is definitely the right place to work through some of your issues with being uncertain, there are many people here who are in similar situations/who have been through similar situations to yours. I don't know what the LGBT scene is like in Illinois but I would suggest doing a Google search for your nearest LGBT club/society and go along there to meet some people. They also might be able to help you figure out your feelings. Hormones are rampant during teenage years and people often want to experiment so it is possible that this is just a phase. However, there's no point in repressing your feelings in case you are bisexual, so my personal advice would be to just put yourself out there, get to know some other LGBT people who may understand what you're going through and just work through your feelings until you're a little more certain!
I will also be a junior and when I was a sophomore I went thru the same thing. one day I decided to talk to one of my best friends from 6th grade you turned out to be a lesbian and thru her I found out that there are plenty of LGBT people at my school and I started talking to other gay and bi guys about it. As soon as I started talking to other guys with the same mind set as me I knew that I was bi. So just pick a really close friend to talk to about it and I'm sure you will find yourself Hope this Helps
