I'm bisexual, but I really only want to date women. I can only see myself with a lady. And I want to be a lesbian. I just want to admire men. So, would it be considered "lying" or being in the closet if I call myself a lesbian? Because more than 50% of my crushes are women, and I present myself as a "lesbian" if that makes sense. So, any thoughts?
If you only want to 'admire' men, then it sounds to me like you are a lesbian. But in any case, the only person who gets to decide what your identity is is you, so if you want to identify as a lesbian, go for it. Who is going to tell you otherwise?