The more I debate about it, the more confused I become

Hi everyone. Im really confused and i just want someone's unbiased opinion so I came here.
I want to share my whole entire story to get a 100% opinion. Here goes nothing.

So I guess my story starts in 5th grade. That's when my brother showed me how to masterbate. Early I know. I would say I started watching porn in 7 th grade. Straight porn. It wasnt until about freshmen year (im a sophmore btw) that I watched my first gay porno. I would watch once every montj and would feel ashamed every time after I watched it. Eventually I got up to watching it once a week. To clarify, I would get really hard on both gay videos and straight. Someyimes I would and Sometimes I wouldn't. It depended on the video (both gay and straight). I could never watch an ugly guy nail a girl and I could never watch an ugly girl nail a hot guy. They both have to be attractive. Also, for straight porn i would usally watch the girl but sometimes i would gocus on the guy and then the girl. Also, if the guy had a small dick i couldnt watch. I dont know why. I don't know if any of that had to do with anything.

In the past i had a middle school gf in 6,7,and 8th grade. in 6th and 7th I was really connected with them. I cried (never have since then) after I dumped one of them. I haven't had a gf since 8th but I did have an extensive friends with benefits relationship in the beginning of 8th. All we did was make out everyday but we did it really passionately. I always got excited before we started. I've made out with a few girls since then but things have gotten really twisted since I started drinking. The first time I drank I made out with 3 girls. It was a coed sleepover and while the girls were sleeping, one of my friends thought me and another friend should blow eachother.We did and we both finished. my penis would have a small boner then it would disappear. I never really got a 100% boner..we didn't even come close to making out( I didn't want to make out at all, I just wanted his penis) but he did stick his dick in my ass for about 2 seconds. It was a weird feeling. I kinda liked it but It didn't feel right. We were completely drunk. I should add that the encouraging friend I believe 100% is gay. He really loved watching every second of us and was sad when we stopped. he was the one that wanted us to do everything. the reason we did it was pretty much because of him because he wouldnt stop suggesting what we should do. He wanted to join in too. For other teasons also i think hes gay too, and im really not saying this just to bash him. i really do think hes gay.To this day I think I was curious but I kinda want to blow him again. I don't want to make out with him or his body but I just want his dick. I don't know of I'm just doing this to be rebellious with my sexual life or if I actually want it.
The second time I got drunk again was with the same people. This time I fingered made out and got blown by a girl. Same thing with the boner. It would come and go but it was never 100%. I really enjoyed the whole Experiance with her, even tho I really have never felt attracted to her , but I did feel attracted about the guy. What I mean is the girl wasnt my type really, but the guy was my type partly because he had a big penis. Either way I would characterize experiances as the girl as being natural which flowed together and the guy being fun but strange.
Lately, I got called gay by one person on ask.fm. I don't get bullied and I have alot of friends. I feel the most comfortable around girls. I partly attribute that to growing up with 9 sisters and one brother but also that could mean I'm gay because dont gays hang around girls more? Or I think that's just a stereotype. Did I mention I masterbate with my brother on occasion? I look at his penis sometimes but there's something to admire about a nice penis. Back to ask.fm. Alot of my friends stood up for me saying I'm straight. Im trying to not let it get to me but lately I've been masterbateing to more and more gay porn after the gay comments. I tell myself it's just a phase but I'm just not sure.

To sum it up. I can picture myself marrying a girl and having kids. I want to flirt with girls, not guys. The thought of flirting with guys or making out with them is gross and appalling. I don't have emotional connections with guys, I just want to blow them. Something can be said about a nice body and penis. When I'm not thinking, I look at girls boobs and butts alot, but on occasion I look at biceps and abs. I don't know if I'm admiring their abs and biceps or if I'm sexually attracted to them. I would never want to be a girl and I'm happy with my penis. My family would support me if I'm gay of bi, it's just a matter of figuring out what I am.

That's everything. Would appreciate all opinions.

 

Thank you.

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Hi everyone. Im really confused and i just want someone's unbiased opinion so I came here.
I want to share my whole entire story to get a 100% opinion. Here goes nothing.

So I guess my story starts in 5th grade. That's when my brother showed me how to masterbate. Early I know. I would say I started watching porn in 7 th grade. Straight porn. It wasnt until about freshmen year (im a sophmore btw) that I watched my first gay porno. I would watch once every montj and would feel ashamed every time after I watched it. Eventually I got up to watching it once a week. To clarify, I would get really hard on both gay videos and straight. Someyimes I would and Sometimes I wouldn't. It depended on the video (both gay and straight). I could never watch an ugly guy nail a girl and I could never watch an ugly girl nail a hot guy. They both have to be attractive. Also there was something about the guy always having to have a big dick. it could never be small. I don't know if that had to do with anything.

In the past i had a middle school gf in 6,7,and 8th grade. in 6th and 7th I was really connected with them. I cried (never have since then) after I dumped one of them. I haven't had a gf since 8th but I did have an extensive friends with benefits relationship in the beginning of 8th. All we did was make out everyday but we did it really passionately. I always got excited before we started. I've made out with a few girls since then but things have gotten really twisted since I started drinking. The first time I drank I made out with 3 girls. It was a coed sleepover and while the girls were sleeping, one of my friends thought me and another friend should blow eachother.We did and we both finished. my penis would have a small boner then it would disappear. I never really got a 100% boner..we didn't even come close to making out ( i wouldnt want to at all anyway)but he did stick his dick in my ass for about 2 seconds. It was a weird feeling. I liked it but It didn't feel right. It was almost alien like. We were completely drunk. I should add that the encouraging friend I believe 100% is gay. He really loved watching every second of us and was sad when we stopped. he was the one that wanted us to do everything. the reason we did it was pretty much because of him because he wouldnt stop suggesting what we should do. He wanted to join in too. For other teasons also i think hes gay too, and im really not saying this just to bash him. i really do think hes gay.To this day I think I was curious but I kinda want to blow him again. I don't want to make out with him or his body but I just want his dick. I thought after I did it I could tell if I was gay or straight, but now I'm even more confused. I'm not sure whether I'm still curious or if I actually want to do it sexually.
The second time I got drunk again was with the same people. This time I fingered made out and got blown by a girl. Same thing with the boner. It would come and go but it was never 100%. I really enjoyed the whole Experiance with her, even tho I really have never felt attracted to her , but I did feel attracted about the guy. What I mean is she wasn't my type. I'm Definently attracted to certain girls, just not her. my standards become low while drunk. the guy whoever had a big dick so I felt attracted to him. even tho the girl felt natural and the guy felt alienish while still fun.
Lately, I got called gay by one person on ask.fm. I don't get bullied and I have alot of friends. I feel the most comfortable around girls. I partly attribute that to growing up with 9 sisters and one brother. I'm much more comfortable around girls than guys. don't know if that's my sexuality or just my upbringing. Did I mention I masterbate with my brother on occasion? I look at his penis sometimes but there's something to admire about a nice penis. Back to ask.fm. Alot of my friends stood up for me saying I'm straight. Im trying to not let it get to me but lately I've been masterbateing to more and more gay porn after the gay comments. I tell myself it's just a phase but I'm just not sure. I tell myself everything is messed up right now because of teenager hormones but I just don't know.

To sum it up. I can picture myself marrying a girl and having kids. the thought of making out or flirting with a guy is gross. but I flirt with girls all the time. I don't have emotional connections with guys, I just want to blow them. Something can be said about a nice body and penis. When I'm not thinking, I look at girls boobs and butts alot, but on occasion I look at biceps and abs. I don't know if I'm admiring their abs and biceps or if I'm sexually attracted to them. I would never want to be a girl and I'm happy with my penis. My family would support me if I'm gay of bi, it's just a matter of figuring out what I am.

That's everything. Would appreciate all opinions.